6 - Everywhere even in your darkest day

A dose of God is Everywhere even in your darkest day

Transcript

Current Episode Introduction

This episode is informed by the verse of the poem representing the letter:

• E

• A dose of God is Everywhere even in your darkest day

It includes a brief description of the verse, a personal reflection demonstrating how the verse has facilitated my own resonance with Doses of God in my life, a statement of gratitude, and a few guiding questions that may be considered for your own reflection.

Description

Here is description of the verse:

• A dose of God is Everywhere even in your darkest day

• God’s grace is everywhere, all the time. When you are unable to see Him, He is there. When you are unable to hear Him, He is there. When you are unable to feel Him, He is there. When you are at your lowest low, He is there, waiting to help you get up. He has a Dose readily available for you. You must simply open your soul and let it in. When in a time of despair, pause for a moment of presence. Be still. Clear your mind of the toxic thoughts that keep the moment dark. Allow God’s presence to enter your soul. Allow yourself to realize the grace that He designed for you. He is there.

Reflection

Here is my personal reflection on the verse:

• To me, this verse is about allowing myself to connect with a divine presence during moments of despair. Throughout the years, I have endured many moments of despair, several of which I believe resulted from my inability to cope with circumstances that did not fall along my intangible spectrum of expectations, whether or not my expectations were operationally defined. Such despondent moments are evidenced by holes I punched in doors at my parents’ house as a child, a handful of pills I ingested with hopes of not waking up on a couple occasions as an adolescent, and irrational reactions directed toward people I love as a young adult on multiple occasions. My internal darknesses that were made manifest into these types of externally harmful demonstrations were partially captured in poems and reflections written during some of the most emotionally arduous times in my life. Here are a few excerpts representing a sample of feelings I felt while enduring dark moments.

  • I’m gonna end it now. Into a deep dark hole. I’ll take myself far away. I’ll forever destroy my soul.

  • It all starts to slowly slide down the drain. What once pist me off now drives me insane. Why not just end it now and ease all the pain.

  • Trigger in hand - Gun at my head. Never again will I leave my bed. Victory, yes, I finally won. No more problems with the help of a gun.

  • I just want to rage. I just want to yell. I feel like I’m sending myself. Straight into hell.

  • This chaos controls me. As of now I am not free. Will the exit soon be clear. What am I to be.

  • So many questions. With answers untold. Feelings of insanity. Burrowed deep in my soul.

  • I don’t have the slightest idea of what is happening. The feelings of insanity that I experience make no sense whatsoever. There has never been a time during my life when I had wished this hatred upon myself.

• Although I was unaware of a divine presence during my most troubling times, I believe my survival through periods of such intense hopelessness and rage is evidence that divinity was by my side to ease me out of the misery. I think my inability to see a connection in my younger years -- including childhood, adolescent, and young adult stages of life -- between unmet expectations and unbearable discouragement resulted in a greater ratio of despairing moments during those times. As I have become more aware of the eternally divine presence in my life, I have become more adept at connecting with the presence, which allows me to more effectively cope with circumstances that reside outside my spectrum of expectations. I think at the very core of my current set of expectations is an expectation for me to realize contentment or a sense of rightness, regardless of whether a circumstance is perceptively good, bad, or neutral. What I mean by this is a feeling of conviction that I am at a point along the path of life that is right for me. To this day, there are situations in my life that don’t align with what I might expect, but I am much more aware of the divinity that can illuminate my dark aura and am, therefore, better at connecting with its presence and drawing from its strength before I fall too deep into a seemingly bottomless pit of despair. I don’t really have any formal methods for connecting with divine presence; however, the following types of practices seem to help when my contentment or sense of rightness is being compromised.

  • I focus on my breath, which draws my attention to the current moment and dissolves unnecessary focus on incessant reminiscing thoughts of the past or anticipating thoughts toward the future. This practice induces an enhanced sense of rightness or contentment by allowing me to resonate more deeply with God’s ever present existence.

  • I silently recite “The ABCs of a Dose of God” poem in part or in full.

  • I pray, God, please use me as a tool for your word to contribute to the greater good of the world. Where and how can I make a difference?

  • I pray, God, please help me do something I enjoy and am good at doing in such a way that makes a positive difference.

  • I pray something along the lines of, God, Please free me from resentment, from anger, from hatred. Free me from haste, judgment, and self-doubt. Please fill me with love and peace. Fill me with altruistic intentions and the courage and passion to put your intentions into action. God, please provide me with both the knowledge to know what’s right and the capacity to do it. Help me to see and perform your will that is right in front of me at each moment. Give me courage to seek meaning when it is right for me to understand, and give me comfort in uncertainty if I begin searching for meaning in something that is not intended to be understood. Guide me into the eternal essence of goodness, your boundless and infinite glory.

• I’m not oblivious to the likelihood that there will be moments of periodic darkness sprinkled throughout my life. However, I find comfort in my faith that divinity will prevent me from falling too deep, and will help me emerge, if I allow myself to resonate with its presence.

Gratitude Statement

I am immeasurably grateful for:

• God’s ongoing presence and will attempt to remain attentive to his ever present existence during troubling times.

Guiding Questions

Here are a few guiding questions to consider that might facilitate your own personal reflection upon the verse:

• A dose of God is Everywhere even in your darkest day

Take a moment to reflect on:

• a few of your darker days and how you were able to, or could have, resonated with God’s presence during those times.

For example:

• What are examples of times when you have experienced dark days?

• How do you feel during these times?

• How do you navigate moments of despair so you can feel better and glean value through the experience?

• In what ways do you express gratitude for God’s eternal existence during dark times and the peaceful energy He can bring to you?

• What strategies could you implement to maintain awareness of God’s presence during moments of despair?

Closing Statement

In closing:

• When you find yourself in a dark day and submit your soul to God’s presence, you receive a Dose of God.

Next Episode

The next episode in this series will focus on the verse representing the letter:

• F

• A dose is there in your best Friend helping you to find your way

Positive Vibes

Thank you so much for listening. May you consistently position yourself to accept and resonate with the Doses of God that are ever-presently here for you.